Today I had a really, really, really, shitty day. I was really upset, and I was hurting terribly. I reached out, in the form of a fb status. Not overly classy, but when I get like that, I tend not to think straight and just act before thinking. I go from heart not head. Anyway, I reached out and honestly, the friendships I have... They are worth more than gold.
I got so much support, so much love, and so much understanding. While my heart hurts, having these people in my life makes it smart a little less, makes it heal a little faster, and reminds me to think that just maybe, theres a chance that if these people love me so much, maybe there's something of worth in me after all. I know that sounds dramatic, but its not news to hear I have self esteem issues and I genuinely react with surprise to see how amazing my friends are, and how zealous they are in their support and love for me. It really, honestly, makes me look at myself differently.
Can you imagine how valuable that is??? Can you fathom what that is worth??
“Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. "Pooh," he whispered.
"Yes, Piglet?"
"Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw, "I just wanted to be sure of you."
I am so sure of my friends, they are always letting ME know they're sure of me. Thank you, each of you who offered kind words, who offered love, support and encouragement. You will never truly know just how deeply it effects me. I swear I am not a sap but I have tears of gratitude. You are worth so much to me. Your friendship is appreciated more than you can possible imagine. I love you <3
6 comments:
xoxoxo I read every single word of it today, and it was all entirely true. You are kind, and lovely, and generous - we all see the wonderful things that you are, and will remind you of it in those moments when you're not seeing it in yourself!
I'm looking for the "like" button. Much love girlie. xx
Gretchen
You are loved by many, and as you cross this bridge know you are not alone. You are beautiful and you are a wonderful woman deserving of love x
Yes, you are, too, a sap and you should be absolutely proud of that, not ashamed!! I fully understand your self-esteem issues. This whole experience will make you so much stronger. I experienced something awful with the hubster about 4 years ago. However painful it was at the time, and it was, I am grateful because I love myself more now than I ever did in my entire life. You'll get through this with your beautiful self, smaller self, even!!
On that last note, this picture and your pic with your kitty from yesterday show just how much you've lost in your face!!!! What a difference!!!
Glad to hear that you're sure you're loved, because, quite simply, you are. xox
*HUGS*
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